Long time, no blog. This isn’t an unusual phenomenon for me. I have these wonderful intentions to write daily but life just gets in the way. Take for instance, the fact that both kids got strep throat. Before they had even finished their course of antibiotics, dear child number 1 wakes up with horrendous croup. Several days later, dear child number 2 wakes up with even worse croup. A day later, dear mom wakes up with a rotten sore throat. And so it goes.
Work has been steady and ever challenging. But this is a good thing. I haven’t been as stressed as in previous weeks which means that I haven’t felt the need to self-medicate. In fact, tonight, for the first time since, well, I am not sure, I would have to read back through my posts to see when the last drink I had was, I had some wine. I bought a bottle (after much deliberation) to have with dinner. I had one glass of wine with dinner and a second after dinner. It was a very drawn out process though and it left me without any buzz whatsoever! I had no desire to keep drinking to seek that buzz either. This is a major breakthrough for me. I wasn’t sure if I’d be capable of sensible drinking again and this gives me great hope.
Along with my sore throat, I have had really nasty headaches and so I have had to dig into the migraine meds the past two mornings. But they did their thing – one pill each morning of the weekend – and I have managed to have a reasonable weekend. I even wiped the cobwebs from my bike and went out for a ride on Saturday morning. It has been a very long time since I have been on the bike. It will be quite some time before I can sit on the seat again! My hip pulled up sore after the ride and I continue to chase down a specialist who can give me a firm diagnosis for the source of pain. Because the weather was relatively nice this weekend, I managed to get out into the garden to dig up weeds and plant new plants. In a couple more weeks, I will head to the nursery to buy some seedlings.
I love to watch things grow. Gardening is something that my boys can help me with too. Last year, they each planted a gerbera daisy plant. My older son delighted in watching it flower all summer. I love gerberas so I plan to do this again this year. They don’t seem to have much interest in vegetable gardening just yet!
Well that is about the sum of my life over the past few weeks. I am proud of myself for not hitting the bottle and I am not feeling guilty for enjoying a drink tonight. I never intended to quit drinking altogether, although there have been times when I wondered if I would need to. I am still trying to figure out how to spend enough time with the kids in addition to working, keeping a clean house, and exercising. Exercising has somewhat fallen by the wayside due to the hip pain, but the house still needs to be cleaned, meals to be cooked etc. I wonder if working moms ever truly figure this out? If so, please let me know how you do it!
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